sweet and tender hooligan.

From the surface it sounds silly, I’ll admit it. I can’t help but feel awful about it though. I didn’t think it’d be a big deal. Suddenly it is and I hate everything about it. I just wanted to share another piece of the puzzle. I just wanted everyone to know what makes me happy. I hold many things inside because sometimes only the intended listener should know but even then, I’m not being secretive in a sense that I’m hiding something. I’m being mindful of my actions. I’m not being unreasonable. I’m being as honest as I’ve ever been. I wish it would reflect better but if it were anymore obvious, it would literally smack you in the face.

I feel like a fool for letting myself get in so deep. I need to focus.

Things must be getting serious.